I will admit I had a fleeting thought of "why me, and how can I accomplish all of this"
Then I opened an email from someone. It wasn't really what the email said or who it was from, but it was the timing of it and knowing what God was telling me through the words. I mentioned it in a post before, but today I'm reminded of it again.
Everything I have on my plate, I asked for. Everything in my hands, is a responsibility God knows I am capable of handling...and handling it well. Not just getting it done, or maintaining, but doing it in excellence.
I can't count the times in my life where I asked God to refine me. Soften the rough edges. Only to find myself in a place of feeling more challenged than I ever have before. My dependancy on no one else but Him. A need to seek deeper, and further. What was happening? Exactly what I asked for...refinement.
I can't count how many times I have prayed and asked the Lord to use me, use my story for His glory. To redeem what was lost. Not to allow the enemy to steal my joy, or the beautiful parts of my babies lives and what they did in me, in my family, and in others who hear it. Project Hope was birthed from this place. Every email I've received, every new responsibility, every commitment....What is happening? Exactly what I asked for.
So many times in our life we pray, beg and plead for God to move in an area of our life. To make us better, to wash us clean, to shed light on the dark places of our hearts, to use us, to refine us.
Then the hard part comes. The tough parts. Pruning. Purifying. The work. It's not always easy. It's not always fun. But it is necessary.
It's necessary if we want to move forward, move up, elevate ourselves to the higher calling God has for each and every one of us.
Sometimes we just need to take a step back and get some perspective. It's easy to get caught up in the "works" of it all, in the need to do and have to do and the exhaustion that comes from it. But in stepping back, giving it all to Him and acknowledging Him in every bit of it, he makes the path straight, He prepares the way and more than that...He makes us more than capable.
So when the challenges come, the to-do lists look impossible, or the mountain looks too steep. Know that isn't. Know that God knows you.
He knows you.
And He knows what you need, when you need it and how you need. Even before you ask for it.
I'm reminding myself of this today.
James 1:2 -4
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.
Isn't that verse just so good?
Count it all joy.