Friday, January 6, 2012

Intentions for 2012

Intention:
1. A course of action that one intends to follow.
2. An aim that guides action; an objective.

i have lots of goals, lots of wishes and hopes and plans for 2012, but how intentional i am about them is what will see them accomplished. so instead of calling these my goals, im calling them my intentions for 2012. broken down into different areas of my life.
im not going to share all of them today because there's too much i want to say about each one, so ill start with a couple today.

this blog. ill be honest. i got a little burnt out. there is way much more to this blogging world than the average person realizes. it all gets to be a lot. too much sometimes. and somewhere in december i decided i needed a break. so i took it. and im so glad i did. i needed to step back and refocus and just spend time with my family. i wanted to take in the time with them, being present for it all and i knew in the near future there were some decisions i needed to make for this blog.
 i wasn't quite sure how to jump back in or even if i wanted to. i was conflicted because it has brought so much blessing. it really has. through project hope, i met so many amazing people. bloggers and non bloggers. people. who just have a heart to give and to bless and to love.
but even in that i felt a tad burnt out. it was a lot to take on. emotionally and mentally.

then last night, i spoke with Liz from Threads of Love. have i ever mentioned how incredibly cute and sweet this old women sounds? like i literally can not wait to meet her and hug her. and i finally get to on tuesday. they will be back in their facility and we will take them the memory boxes then. we hadn't been able to work out a time to get together over the holidays, but it turns out this is perfect timing anyway. They are down to only 4 boxes at the moment. she was so excited and even shocked to hear we had raised almost 700$ and completed 50 boxes. She was even more amazed that people from all over donated. she was so excited im pretty sure she was giggling. and then she made me all giddy too. it was a reminder of what a huge accomplishment this was. and not by my doing alone, but by people i will never meet. people who read this blog. and then i realized...remembered, what an amazing avenue this blog is. what a light it can be.

i woke up this morning with Matthew 5:14 running through my head over and over again "you are the light of the world, a city on a hill can not be hidden"....i got my Bible out to read the rest of the passage, because i knew God was wanting to tell me something. Verse 15 "neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. instead they put it on its stand and it gives light to everyone in the house. v16- in the same way let your light shine before men that they may see your good deeds and PRAISE YOUR FATHER IN HEAVEN"

its what this is all about. Praising my Father in Heaven. it's about Him.
but that part that says "that they may see your good deeds"...i have a hard time with that.  just putting myself out here in such an open space, where anyone can read, assume, judge, critique ...its hard sometimes.  so i kind of shut off. i turn the other direction instead when it gets to be too much.
but how is that allowing God to be seen. How is that allowing others to praise God for what HE did through me. through other people.
its not. its actually selfish. maybe a little prideful even and more so-ignorant. because what my heart cries for is to be used by Him, for Him to love others. that His glory would be shown. that should just be enough to put my "self" and all of my insecurities aside, right? i realize that in making it about me and my insecurities, im not making it about Him.

so  i want to be more intentional with this platform. and being ok with having myself out here. even when it's hard. it's an avenue like any other and if im not being a good steward of it, then what purpose is it serving.  my intention is to just continue being me.  to continue sharing the bits of me like creating and decorating and making this house a home. i love it all. i want to be able to write posts about my favorite makeup and hair products, a DIY project, or something I'm doing with my kids and then turn around and show you my heart, what God is speaking to it. maybe even the darker sides of it, my struggles, my anxieties, my burdens... and know that its good and ok to share it all because it's me. and by me, being me, im letting my light shine and praying He is glorified through me above all.

i especially want to continue using it as a place to bring people together to make a difference, to bring hope and show God's love in different ways, like Project Hope. that is my greatest intention of them all. 

to be honest i opened the Splendor shop with no real plan. i just started. and then it took off, and as i took more steps forward i realized how much i loved creating things for people, sending them off and knowing a little part of me was going out to people i might never meet. i love coming up with new designs. sometimes my head takes off faster with ideas and inspirations than i can actually physically follow through with. and that frustrates me a little. because there is so much more i want do with my business. but it takes time and it takes learning and growing. and sometimes im impatient. so thats where i want to be more intentional. i want to write down some goals i have for the shop this year and how i plan to follow through with them. i want to learn how to take it to the next level and then be intentional about doing it. but i have to learn first how to balance it. i have 2 little girls who depend on me during the day. one who has become very mobile and very nosey and is not into the idea of sitting still. at all.
And evenings are for "us", the kids, brandon and i. So i need to find the time and balance. i need to get in a schedule of sorts, where i set the time aside to work on the shop that doesn't take away from my family or my home.  thats my first intention for the shop, because i feel like after i find that, i can be intentional about keeping it without neglecting the other priorities in my life.

not only that, but i want to come to a place where i know its ok to work on my business. where i realize this is also something God has given me and putting time and energy into it shouldn't produce a sense of guilt. this is something i do as an outlet of creativity. i enjoy it.  but at the same time, its also a source of income for this family. we have some financial goals for the year as well, and my business is something God has given me to stride forward in those goals. i need to be more  intentional about moving forward with it. because i know God's got big plans for it. He's just recently planted some seeds in my heart for it, beyond what i would have ever thought id want for it, but the seed is there. so i can't help but think...no, I know, He's got a plan for it. It's up to me to get it there. He's not going to move a parked car, you know what im sayin?

my heart is overflowing with things i want to do this year. hopes, plans, goals... intentions. sharing them holds me accountable, yes, but it also hopefully inspires you too. it may sound cliche to say that it's a new year, a year for new beginnings and starting over, but it's true. make this your year. a big year. a year that you look back and don't say what happened to 2012, but instead, "look what happened in 2012"

next week, i'd like to share how i plan to be intentional with my family, my home, our finances, Project Hope and my spiritual walk too.

what about you? do you make resolutions for the new year?  id love to hear maybe one of your intentions for 2012, share it in the comments! or if you have a blog and wrote a post about it, leave the link as well.

im linking this post up with Heather 
if you've never met her you should head over to her blog asap. you will love her.

10 comments:

  1. being me that's my 2012 intention. i tend to get wrapped up in what i think people want me to be.
    great post girl. keep shining!

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  2. My plans for 2012 are to get involved with non profits!! To do selfless acts every month and to give to those in need. I have my 12 months of giving back already planned out!

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  3. I so know what you mean about finding that "balance and routine." I'd love to find some balance: I find blogging to be such a joy but it can also be overwhelming WHEN I let it be. My mom always said: "Pray first!" so the Lord can be the focus and inspire what comes next, and I find when I do that, I don't get so caught up in the craziness of things. Thanks for sharing...this was a fantastic post!

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  4. My latest post touched on my "goals". I'm breaking 2012 goals into monthly ones.

    That and to write on my blog regularly now that I have a computer again. ;)

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  5. Oh, I can so relate to this post. I am also trying to run a blog and a shop with two kiddos and work outside of the home, but it really gives me joy to write and create and I hope that it somehow brings encouragement to others. I did write a post about some of my goals that you can peek at here:http://beautifulbitsofgrace.blogspot.com/2011/12/resolve.html
    Looking forward to reading your blog in 2012! I subscribe by email and your blog always bring a smile and encouragement to my day.

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  6. Laura,

    Oh how I have missed your posts! You have been such a blessing to me. truly.

    However, I totally understand the getting burnt out on blogging. I used to have a frugal blog. It was a ton of work! I had to let it go last July because it was overtaking my life.

    I love your intentions for the new year. I too, made some goals for this year. I made some for each area of my life:

    1.Spiritual - Draw closer to God.
    Make daily devotions a priorty
    Find a new church home
    2.Family - Make more memories.
    Do a weekly game night
    Concentrate on traditions
    Make family dinner a priority most nights
    Take a picture a day and do something like the project hope scrapbooks.
    3.Intellectual - Read more books.
    Read at least 2 books per month (I picked out 24 books that I would like to read this year)
    4.Physical - Get Healthy.
    This is a big one for me, as I have a lot of weight to loose (more than I'd like to mention). But I have set the number and with God's grace and strength. I know I will meet this goal.
    5.Financial - Get through step 3b
    We love and follow Dave Ramsey's plan so we would like to get through that step this year :)
    6.Career - Work more hours.
    Pray about what it is God wants me to do when my little one starts kindergarten this year.
    7.Social - Do more with friends.
    Have a dinner party once a month.
    Become more active in a women's group (ex. mops, stonecroft ministries, ect.)

    I truly am so excited about making these goals, writing them down, and living more intentionally this year.

    Thanks for all you do with this blog. You inspire, motivate, and encourage me along with many other women. Your blog is my daily retreat. One that I look forward to every day. May God bless you and your family this year.

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  7. Loving the blog. I am your newest follower.

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    http://nmephotoblog.blogspot.com/

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  8. Hi Laura!
    I have to tell you that I am so glad you decided to keep posting on your blog. You are such an ispiration to me! I could go on and on about all the ways that you have reminded me how to be a better Christian, a better wife and a better mom! I even had the confidence to do my own DIY project at Christmas(tutus for my nieces)!! You are definitly the "light on a hill" for me. If I am having a rough day or listening to the pessimists and and complainers at work, I can read a couple of entries from your blog and instantly feel better. NOT KIDDING!! You remind me to 'Live in the moment' with my husband and kids and to never take a single moment for granted. And... without you, I wouldn't have tried my Scentsy warmers, Crystal Light Energy powder, or Pantene Volume Shampoo and conditioner. All of which are VERY important to my everyday routines now. :) I don't know anything about the blogging world, and other than FB, I don't venture out into this stuff, but I LOVE your blog!
    Anyway, without sounding like a stalker...(too late)! I just want to let you know that you are my inspiration, from your daily routines to your big projects. I strive to be the mom, wife and Christ follower that you also are striving to be. Thanks for EACH of your posts!
    Crystal
    P.S. My 2012 Intentions are to lose 20 pounds by summer so I can take the kids to the pool without being EXTREMELY self conscious. And to "Let go and Let God" with more aspects of my life. I stress about way too many things that he always takes care of, so I want to strive to lean more on him. :)

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  9. laura, i love this post. you're totally speaking my language, lady. intentional. vulnerable. lay it out there, be used, ask the Lord to expand your influence and for more people to see your LIGHT. because it's a beautiful one, and its a blessing to see Him inspire you to shine.

    my word for the year is HOPE. I just realized it last week, and blogged about it just now. He has a lot in store for us, doesn't He? no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has imagined what the Lord has in store for those who love Him!

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