I snapped this picture quickly yesterday afternoon.
In the midst of laughing, and squirming and kissing and cuddling.
My two girls and my sisters sweet baby girl. Olivia Joy.
New babies, I always think, are the closest thing to heaven we will ever be here on earth.
Holding them makes me feel a little closer to my own babies waiting in heaven.
Just when I think I've settled it within me, I hold this little girl and it hits me again.
"What could have been" I sometimes think.
But then I wouldn't have my Bella Grace and Mia Glory.
My gifts and my joy.
And I wouldn't want it any other way, really.
One day, I know I will see mine all together. And I am thankful that I do.
But I think God gives me little glimpses now and then.
Not of "what could have been"
but of what will be.