What will be

 

I snapped this picture quickly yesterday afternoon.
In the midst of laughing, and squirming and kissing and cuddling.

My two girls and my sisters sweet baby girl. Olivia Joy.

New babies, I always think, are the closest thing to heaven we will ever be here on earth.
Holding them makes me feel a little closer to my own babies waiting in heaven.

Just when I think I've settled it within me, I hold this little girl and it hits me again.
"What could have been" I sometimes think.   

But then I wouldn't have my Bella Grace and Mia Glory. 
My gifts and my joy.
And I wouldn't want it any other way, really. 

One day, I know I will see mine all together. And I am thankful that I do.

But I think God gives me little glimpses now and then.

Not of "what could have been" 
but of what will be.