Thursday, June 21, 2012

Giving it up

We got hit with the sickies these last couple of days. Fortunately it came and left pretty quick, but when it came it wasn't fun.
It was hard as a mom to see it hit each kid right after the other. Mia woke up 2 days ago with it {vomiting and low fever} She slept a lot and woke up yesterday 100% better.
Then Bella got hit with it late yesterday morning. She slept it off and woke up yesterday evening 100% better. Then Asher started complaining of a stomach ache and got hit with it yesterday evening.

It really did happen just like that. One right after the other in the matter of 2 days.
And then, just as we got Asher feeling better. It hit me. Hard. I was in bed from about 6pm yesterday to this morning. I remember thinking that I didn't have time to be sick...isn't that every mom's first thought when we start feeling sick? I had so much on my mind, and so many things I needed to do. 

But something happened in the middle of it all, that spoke to me loud and clear. For right where I am. And I guess it was just another way God reminded me of something He's been telling me over and over again lately.

It was late, Asher was still awake. B was outside watering the grass. I was in the bath because baths are my go-to when I'm not feeling good. I got out and as I did, Asher came in to ask me something. I got this huge wave of nausea and started to get really sick. 

I heard Asher talking to someone around the corner, just outside the bathroom, but couldn't hear what he was saying. I did hear "mom" a few times though, and assumed Brandon had come back in the house and he was talking to him.

But when I was done and stepped out of the bathroom, Asher came from around the corner  and said "Feel better? I was praying for you. Did you hear me?"

The very first and only thing Asher knew to do for me was pray. And let me tell you, he was having a full on conversation with God.

I have to be honest, my very first instinct when one of my kids gets sick, or when something happens in my life, isn't always to pray first.  It should be, but instead, it's sometimes "what can I do to make this better." "how can I fix this"

But the reality is, and what I am always reminding myself of is, it's not my job to fix things. And I don't know about you, but thats hard to swallow for me.
It's not my job to control whatever happens to my kids, or to control how things happen in my life.
Isn't control the root of it all, really? We think we have it. We want to have it.
But we don't and it can be so hard to realize that.

We can pray though. Prayer is what changes things.

I keep thinking about Asher and how the prayers of a little boy for his mom, were no doubt heard and answered. How sweet his voice must've sounded to the ears of Jesus.  There is so much power in our prayers. More than we could ever accomplish with our own hands. I'm constantly being reminded of this. It's what He is speaking so loud to me about right now. Giving it all up, to Him. 


Today is the start of a new reading plan for She Reads Truth.  I would encourage you to join us. 
It is "Living the Surrendered Life" on the You version app. Sounds pretty perfect for what God is speaking to me lately, how about you? 
I am committing myself to doing it and to joining them in writing and sharing our notes on instagram & twitter. If you would like to follow me in either of those places, my instagram name is @bitsofsplendor and @LauraCaddell on Twitter.  

Let me know if you are going to join and then leave me your handle names so I can follow you too!

20 comments:

  1. I love this! And I can so relate. I totally feel that the Lord has been hitting me over the head with this message too. We have an almost 5 yr old daughter, a 2 yr old and son and a new baby girl who is 2 weeks old. It seems like the more kids I have the more God is reminding me to just let go and surrender it all to Him! Thanks for the reminder! <3

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    1. It's hard though isn't it? But truly, giving it up to Him can also be so freeing. Accepting that we don't have to, nor CAN we do it all on our own. It's a reminder we all need for sure!

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  2. This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for the reminder.

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    1. you are welcome! I'm glad my reminder, was a good reminder for you too ;)

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    1. He definitely has my heart, that boy ;)

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  4. What a beautiful moment, thanks for sharing and reminding us of the first thing we should do.

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    1. We all need a good reminder sometimes, don't we? :)

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  5. Phew, your post + pregnancy hormone overload + knowing the powerful truth that comes from our kids' mouths = good reminder of God's faithfulness (and a few tears on my part!). I'm starting the #SheReadsTruth study today. Have been seeing it many places but to be honest, have been dragging my feet for various reasons. Looking forward to doing it but a little timid about sharing my thoughts/journaling/etc. But, here's my Instagram handle, just in case! @melissachaney Hope you're all on the mend!

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    1. Ha! sorry to ignite the hormones ;)
      So glad you are starting the study! I followed you on IG :)
      I was timid too {which is why I didn't share it at first} but I really think it inspires and encourages those who read it. You don't have to share your personal feelings either, just maybe one key thing you picked up from it!

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  6. SO true. i'm such a control freak, but God, who is infinitely patient, is constantly reminding me {even through words on other people's blogs!} that i'm not in control. and that i need to go to HIM above all else.

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    1. I'm a control freak too. Well, a recovering one ;) This is an area God is clearly always working on with me. His plans are always so much better, I have to be reminded of that now and then!

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  7. such a great post. I struggle with panic attacks and this is just another reminder that God has it all taken care of and why PANIC! Kids know far more then we give them credit for. It is only when they grow up they lose trust and worry! Thanks for the reminder.

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  8. I found you through #SheReadsTruth (can't remember if it was the twitter or instagram feed!) & I cannot stop reading through your blog. I just love your beautiful spirit-- & how OPEN you are about your life! My handle on IG is @BreannaLaxton.
    & you are SO right-- it's hard (especially as a woman) to remember that we can't always fix things for our family or loved ones... that's what we do, right?! I think this new #SheReadsTruth plan is perfect-- I hope I (& all of us) can learn how to hand my worries, stresses, troubles over to God so He can guide me toward the right path. Maybe He can show me a way to "fix" my troubles-- or maybe he can show me WHY I am facing them. As we read today, troubles are a stepping stone, not an anchor!

    I am just loving this #SheReadsTruth community & the opportunity to connect with so many women, like you! This journey is glorious!

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    1. Hi Breanna! following you now! :) Happy to "meet" you!

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  9. Aw, so sweet! It's awesome that he knows that he can take anything to God! Hope the yucky bug leaves your home soon!

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  10. I love, love, love your blog! Found you through #SheReadsTruth and am inspired by your unique style and your willingness to share. I've even started my own blog after seeing all the blogs of the sweet girls through the Bible study. I have started the Bible Study today (still finishing up Soul Detox, as well). My IG username is @tgholson.

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    1. I am so glad you started the study Tracy! Thank you for your sweet words, I am following you now as well :)

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