Monday, July 23, 2012

the question "Why"

We went to see the Dark Knight yesterday. We got those D box seats that move. Have you ever sat in those? I'm still undecided on how I feel about them. At times I forgot I was sitting in one and would get annoyed because I thought the person behind me was kicking my seat. 
But it was still a different experience and one we don't do often. When Brandon and I have date nights, we always choose to do something different than going to the movies, cause we would rather just get a redbox and come home. But a movie like the Dark Knight--you gotta see it in the theaters. 

While the movie itself was really good and entertaining, and I definitely enjoyed way too much popcorn and lemon heads, I couldn't help but think about the Colorado shootings a time or two.

It was kind of hard not to. When something like that happens, you can't help but start thinking "what if" when your put into the same kind of situation.  I just can't imagine what I would do. I don't want to. I tend to try to keep my mind at peace and not allow vain imaginations of "what if" scenarios that can only bring fear, you know? 

Instead I just tried to move that thinking to prayer and compassion for those that were affected. My heart hurts to think that there are people in the world who are filled with so much anger and hate for others that they would be moved as far as this man in Colorado was. 
I just don't understand it. I also know I never will. 

I'm not trying to turn something horrible that happened to others, into a post about how it affected me. I have no idea who the people were in that theater, or how their lives have changed, and changed those around them. I'm sitting in the comfort of my living room, with my daughter safely asleep upstairs and my other two playing at a friends house. Careless. Worry free. Our lives just the same as it was two days ago.

But when something so tragic happens you hear people start to ask the question "why."
They say that it might take months before we can get answers from this man as to WHY he did what he did. It's what we naturally need and want when something so painful happens.
People want something to blame it all on. A motive. A reason. A cut and dry answer. Closure.

And that is something I can relate to. A question I have battled many times in my life.
Not questioning God himself, because that would insinuate that I thought he was responsible for the tragic things that have happened in our life. And one thing I hope is always clear, is that I don't believe that is the case. I don't believe God would take our babies from us. He is the giver of life. 
He takes what was meant for hurt and pain, and turns it into something beautiful. 
I hope that is what you see when you look at my life. 
A girl who has walked through some hard things, but who lives with joy and peace each day.
My life is beautiful. And I choose to see it that way. Always.

We may not ever know the "why's" to so many of our questions. 
But we can resolve to have peace instead. 
To live by faith. And to love unconditionally.
Don't block out the world and all of it's hurt. Don't hide safely behind your 4 walls.
Do something. Love people. Extend yourself. That in itself can make a difference far beyond what we may ever know.
I can't help but think about this man in Colorado and how his life could've been so different. Did he know the love of God for him? Did anyone ever tell him?
How different the lives of so many might be, if only he knew.

I am sure many of you have read this blog written by someone who was actually inside of the theater when the shootings happened.  There is so much truth in her words. So if you haven't read it yet, I encourage you to. She says it all so perfectly.

Also, my husband taught a really good message not too long ago called "Tragedy never plays favorites" You can click here if you'd like to hear it.
He did an amazing job at telling our story. Both the pain of it, but especially the beauty.

Bottom line is this. Don't question God when bad things happen.
Instead lean into Him even more. You may not get your answers to "why" but I promise you'll find peace in Him. An unexplainable peace that surpasses all understanding.
And that can just be enough.

Bits of Splendor will be back next Monday.
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  1. I had just read that other lady's post yesterday. It was well put! Thanks for the reminder to lean into God harder. I keep questioning how I will respond to my situation if it plays out differently than I want, and I can't answer it right now. I wish I could say I would not be angry with God, but I think I would be at first. It is easy right now to say I would turn to Him and trust Him, and I think I would eventually. it would maybe just take some time.

    Thanks for sharing this post!

  2. hi, this is my first time here. and thank you for the reminder that peace is not the absence of chaos but it is the presence of our sovereign God. "we may not get our answers to the 'whys' but .. we'll find peace in Him." i agree. that is most definitely enough.

  3. I hadn't seen that post from A Miniature Clay Pot - thanks for sharing it.

  4. I read that blog post the other day...she summed it up perfectly...

    This isn't heaven and we live in a fallen world...but one day that will all change~

  5. Thanks for tor encouraging words. Humanity so needs to hear that in the midst of tragedy we can hope in God and He will draw near to us and give us much needed peace.

  6. Thank you for sharing this beautiful, beautiful post! I agree that sharing compassion and kindness is one of the best reactions we could have to this awful tragedy. And faith that there is far more goodness in this world then bad.

  7. Thank you for these words...not just about the Colarado tragedy but as a reminder...I needed to see these. Questioning my own "whys" and then seeing the gift I've been given to be alive and aware in this life while others are having theirs taken away.

  8. totally agree with every word. and thanks for sharing that post; i hadn't see it.

  9. Thanks for sharing! What peace and strength we find in God during the hardest of times. Happy to be your newest follower! xo Heather

  10. Loved this. Such a good reminder for people (and for me).

  11. Laura what a beautiful tribute post. I have sat down several times to write about the event in Colorado and I just can't seem to find the words. It is so tragic. It is so unexplainable. Trying to explain these kinds of events to my children who are aware of the world and it's evils now is even harder. But I agree with you completely. I find it strange when people blame God or even say that God caused this to prove a point, angers me to no end. The best thing I think we can do is to continue to pursue LOVE and pray for those that hurt us.

  12. Well said Babe! You are such a good communicator!

  13. Its so hard not to ask the question, "WHY?" when tragedy and bad situations happen...and its crazy that those are the instances in which we learn, grow and are shaped into the people God is creating us to be...

    Good Words, Laura.

    Be Blessed<3
    Found you through Jami


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