Friday, November 2, 2012

Who I am.

God has been working in me on something the last couple of weeks.
I have felt more compelled to focus on what I am instead of what I am not.

This is hard for me, because it is so much easier to talk about what I am not.
It's easy for me to point out my weakness and my struggles.
It's almost instinctive.

In prayer God will begin to show me who I am. And just like when someone in person gives me a compliment, I want to deflect it.
Every thing He says I am...I want to counteract it with what I am not.

And I've noticed this trend everywhere.
We all want to say "I'm not perfect"....and in that statement we feel more connected to who is saying it. "oh good well neither am I!, lets be imperfect together"

This is truth. We are imperfect. We are flawed. We are messed up.
Because we are all sinners.
Let's get that out there for good.
No one is perfect.
We know this.

I am a girl who is daily, seeking who she is in Christ,
And as I begin to seek that out...cry out to Him to show me who I am..

It never comes in lists of what I'm not
Instead He speaks back to me, who I am.

I think about it like my own children.
As they get older, I can sense them searching for their own identity.
Their place in this family, their place in this world.
And if they were to come to me and ask me who they are....would I instead tell them everything they arent? Would I want them to come tell me everything they aren't?

In my eyes they are perfect. Fearfully and Wonderfully made.
Each with their own strengths. Each with their own weaknesses.
But do I focus more on the weakness then the strengths?
Of course not.
As a mom I speak back to them who they are.
Asher you are smart. You are capable.
Bella you are beautiful and you are kind.
Mia you are hilariously sweet.

Am I aware of the areas they struggle in? yes, but do I focus on them? do I point them out?

When they come to me with something they created would I point out what they did wrong? Would I point out the mistakes and the imperfections?  
Obviously not. I point out the beauty. The creativity.

I hang it somewhere with pride.
say to myself---thats my Bella girls work.
Ins't it Beautiful and perfect?

I feel like God has been telling me the same thing.
Instead of coming to him with every thing I am not, Why not come to Him with everything I am?

Because I'll tell you.....Who I am has a lot more to do with His work in me than who I am not.
Who I am today, is not at all who I was, but everthing to do with where I've been.
And Who I am is more useable than who I am not. 

Our life is a walk of struggle. We know that. Life isn't easy and it is not promised to be.
But I just keep thinking....what if we all started to get a little freer in who we are,
Instead of constantly pointing out who we aren' imperfect we are,
What if, instead we talked about who we are in Him. 
What if, that became the trend?

I feel like God would be even more glorified in that. 
Because we are His.
His pieces of art. His workmanship.
Pointing out the flaws....well that discredits His work.
And who are we to critique His work.

I want to get to the place that who I am speaks louder to me and to others, than who I'm not.
That my instinct would not be to deflect but to praise.

Because who I am and who you are, is all Him.
His work. 
Be confident in it.
Be as quick to speak of who you are, as you are in what you aren't.
And let Him be glorfied in it.
In all of it.

Let Him set you up high,
say to himself....thats my girl.
She's beautiful. She's flawed.
She's perfect.



  1. I love this post, it actually got me a bit emotional. I am the worst when it comes to not accepting compliments, and always focusing on what I "am not" rather than what I am. I am quick to point out that I don't have a single thing that I'm talented or really good at, and any time I try to craft or cook or do anything really I fail at it!
    I love the connection you made to your kids. While I don't have children yet that makes so much sense, we would never point out their flaws or mistakes, just the good things.. so why should we do it to ourselves? I'm going to use this post as the base to start changing my attitude towards myself!
    hope you have a good weekend!

  2. This, too, has been on my heart lately. My entire attitude and all of my actions stem from what I'm dwelling on as well. I think it all comes down to thankfulness really. When my failures and shortcomings are screaming loudly in my heart, I try to give thanks for who He has created me to be...for all that I am in Him...for WHOSE I am.

    Thank you for expressing all of this so beautifully!

  3. I love this. I cried. You could have written this directly to me. I so need to be reminded right now to see who I am, not who I'm not. To look at myself through His eyes, not mine. Thank you.

  4. Very moving post & it made me emotional as well. It is very easy to get caught up in negativity, we are surrounded by it, and takes great strength & deep peace to break away from it I think. Keep on the path! You are such a gifted soul and inspiring to others! Someone told me "what you think about - you bring about" and I believe it's true, positivity brings more positivity & it's contagious :)

  5. I love this! Thank you for writing it. The world definitely does focus on weaknesses rather than strengths. Just think about how much easier it is for us to list all our weaknesses rather than strengths. I need to focus on this for myself and also everyone around me!


    1. amen! our weaknesses are made perfect through Him. :)

  6. Absolutely love this. So timely in my life and in the things God is teaching me. Grateful for your perspective and heart-sharing.

  7. thanks...
    as someone who often struggles with issues of self doubt, this is what i needed to read.
    thanks for sharing your heart!
    i need to focus on what i CAN do... not what i can't.
    besides... jesus' love for me isn't conditional to what i can and can't do.
    he loves me regardless... so i might as well use what i got to glorify him, right?

  8. Just what I needed. It was a perfect answer to what I have been struggling with lately. Especially as an older student back in college I feel like such a failure... like I should have been done wiht this degree a long time ago. I tell myself all the things I am not (like right now, I should be working on a paper for school, but I have convinced myself that I am not a good writer so I am totally procrastinating.) I am going to take this post to heart and start telling myself all the things I am.... even if I have to make them up :). Just kidding. Love you Laura and thanks again!

  9. Love this so much... hope you don't mind that I'm sharing it on facebook - with a link to your blog :)

  10. I love it when I see a post of yours and I can tell it's full of your thoughts and what the Lord has been teaching you. You have a gift with the way you share that allows us all to relate and connect with these same thoughts. Thank you friend! I need to focus more on what I am.

  11. Looove it! Been there recently myself, learning that who I am not is only important to show me who He is in me :) thank you for your sweet honesty, and the excellent example you drew from parenthood!

  12. This just,made me tear up. Beautiful,and inspiring post. Thank you for being open,and honest. (:

  13. "What if, instead we talked about who we are in Him.
    What if, that became the trend?" ... yesss! :)

  14. Love your heart! I needed to hear this. I am harder on myself then anyone else.
    Thank you for sharing this!

  15. What a beautiful heart you have! I needed to read this tonight. Thank you xoxo

  16. I love this post!! Such a beautiful heart.

    I'm loving this design. It just makes me so happy! xo

  17. Such a beautiful post! This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for this.

    I'm going to mention this in my post that will be live tomorrow, if that's OK with you.

    Thanks so much for this!

    Joanna @

  18. Oh my goodness what a beautiful post. I think so many of us girls are hard on ourselves, and we forget to revel in HIS grace. Thank you for this reminder!

  19. This is beautifully written and lovely. love the new design of your blog too.


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