Tuesday, September 24, 2013

-Fresh Starts-




I have this issue with my phone. I am constantly out of storage space on it. I went through not long ago and deleted a ton of apps and photos. That solved the problem for a little bit. It was glorious to be able to take a few pictures without that notification of "no more storage space" popping up.

Until...it did. Again. And I was right back to where I was a couple weeks before. I realize this is pretty low on the list of world problems but this might be one of the most annoying things ever to me.  I feel like I am constantly having to go through and delete what I think is "extra" and try to keep what I think is important. Those sorts of things stress me out. How am I supposed to choose which picture of Mia in the pumpkins is keep-able and which can be trashed?

This is how I feel about life lately. Sort of loaded down. There is a lot on my plate and even more on my mind. It sometimes feels like there is not enough time in the day. I thought about writing a list yesterday to help me sort out the priorities from the "extras." Maybe that would help clear my mind. But even the thought of sitting down to write a list was overwhelming.

I'd sat at the kitchen table earlier in the morning with my devotional out in front of me, notebook ready to write, headphones and pandora set to Jesus Culture. The set up was perfect. But I was so distracted.
My mind just kept racing forward to the next thing I needed to do. The email I needed to send, the orders I needed to package, the errands I needed to run, the groceries I had to get...

And then I suddenly found myself scrolling through instagram instead of my Bible. Because when life feels heavy and loaded why not add more with images and words of what everyone else in the world is doing, right?
Please tell me I am not alone in this habit? Am I the only one who finds herself mindlessly scrolling through instagram when there are so many other {and better} things to be doing?

Yesterday evening, I went for a run and decided to listen to a podcast by Steven Furtick. It wasn't long into my run and into his teaching that the realization between this storage issue with my phone, and the issues in my life were ironically similar.

It got me thinking about what I've been storing. What had I been feeding my heart and mind and spirit? I've piled so much in that I've left little space for Him to speak.

I don't think the answer is to shut the world off.  And I don't think the answer is needing more time.
I think the answer is simply, leaving more space...

Space for Him to move in my life and in my heart.
Time enough to be still and quiet.
Not to waste it on things that aren't encouraging me or uplifting me.
Not to pile my to-do list so high I can't see past it...
But to instead fill my heart and spirit with His word. To dwell in day long conversation with Him.
To check in with Him when I'm feeling weighed down.

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The air has been cooler these last few days. It feels dry and clean. Literally like a fresh breath.
Reminds me that a new season has come.

Today, I'm praying for that fresh air to blow through my heart and spirit. To show me areas where I can use my time more wisely. To clear away the clutter I've been storing and to leave that space wide open for Him.

I'm so thankful for start over's, aren't you?
Happy Fall Y'all.

26 comments:

  1. THIS IS GOOD SISTER. Really good! And speaking right to me today! I am SO guilty of this as well. I NEED to make time for HIM daily at some point or another. Not just a brief hello when I get the notion. Thank you for this. Thank you for your honesty and your openness all the time. You're a sweet soul! xoxoxoxox

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    1. thank YOU Annie for always being so sweet and encouraging.
      I'm thankful we can share our hearts and relate with one another, while lifting each other up.
      It's a beautiful think about this blog world :)

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  2. YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE! at all. this is the story of my life lately. this is such a great post. cheers to new seasons and start overs.
    love ya!

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  3. i'm guilty of it. mindlessly scrolling through IG when i sat down to study His word. this season definitely does bring forth an urge to just slow down and start fresh. completely agree with you.

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    1. There is so much reward and peace that comes when I DO set the time aside and give my complete focus. But sometimes everything else fighting against me for attention to.
      Have to just remember to push through it all and press on.
      High five for new seasons, new days, new mercies :)

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  4. Amen! Lately I have been feeling the same way! It's so easy to be distracted from what's important.

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  5. Yes. This.

    The 'leaving more space' is so important & lately I've been sorting through the best ways to make that happen for me & my family.

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    1. yes exactly! praying the same friend.
      xo.

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  6. Heck yes, I thrive on cleaning up shop. Love the quote on the print at the top of the post, used it on a post of my own last week!:)

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    1. Cleaning up shop is a great way of putting it! We all need to clean out the junk every once in a while, not just in our closets, but especially our spirits/minds!

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  7. I agree with this!! I have started taking some time in the afternoons while my kids nap to do my new Bible study I'm in and stop everything else. It has really helped. Even when I am relaxing, a lot of times my mind is racing to the next thing. We need to have moments of quiet.

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    1. it's so hard isn't it?
      Before I even my quiet time the first thing I have to pray is that God would clear my mind and quiet my heart. The quite time I do get out of spending time with him is so valuable and needed!

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  8. Just what I needed to hear at the exact right time. I have been spending my down time doing things that don't give me rest. Rest in him and actual physical rest and I am feeling it. I'm so encouraged by your heart.

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    1. It's so hard for us mamas to rest. I can so relate. But I'm reminding myself how much I need that time to refuel so I can better pour out into my families lives. Praying you are able to find the rest and time you need!
      xo.

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  9. holy cow... did you write this and take it right out of my own head?
    wow... did i really need to read this.
    it's like you knew what i was thinking/feeling... and you wrote.
    i didn't even know i needed to hear it... but i certainly did!
    thanks!
    xoxo

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    1. haha! no but I did pray someone out there reading would be encouraged by my honesty.I almost always come *this close* to just not hitting "publish".... But God must've known you needed to read it ;)

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  10. Great post. I hope you didn't delete any of the pictures of my Mia girl in the pumpkins. ;) Love you!

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    1. Thanks sweet Mindy----good to "see" you again! :)

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  12. This post spoke right to me. This very issue has been heavy on my heart today. I needed this post. Thank you!

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    1. I am so glad you were encouraged. So thankful for a place we can do that for one another.
      Praying for you today that you would find the "space" you are needing.
      xo.

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  13. I could have written this (even the phone part...argh!!) It's so odd because I'm a classic type A--organized and list-making--but the last month, everything has been so overwhelming that my mind cannot sort it all out! Thanks so much for sharing this. Isn't the answer always Jesus?? :) Blessings, friend!

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  14. I got off instagram and Facebook for feeling like I was wasting time reading about other people. It hit me when my son asked me why I spend more time on the computer than him.

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  15. I read this blog today that you might enjoy. She speaks a lot about what you write in your blogs. Plus... she lives in Texas as well :)

    http://jenhatmaker.com/blog.htm

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  16. it's like you could see into my soul when you wrote this post. looks like it resonated with lots of other ladies too. thanks for putting these honest words to paper and really helping me connect some of the thoughts and feelings i've been having lately.

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